I am loving more and more getting to know Jack. He is such an independent little boy, he definitely lets us know when he doesn't want or wants something! He has a strong little personality, I wonder what he'll be like when he grows up. I think he will keep me running around for sure, he already can turn over from his belly to his back and he did this at 7 weeks! He also continually tries to turn from his back to his belly when we put him on his playmat and gets really frustrated when he can't do so. He is so lovable and I just love to kiss on his little cheeks!
He is also smiling which is SO good for my heart. He loves to smile for dad in the mornings right before he goes off to work. He enjoys sitting on his bouncy seat and looking around, he will be content there for up to 20 minutes! He loves to look towards the TV although he can't see it really. He also enjoys country music, he usually falls asleep to it in the car :)
Motherhood has not gotten easier, in fact it has gotten much harder this past month. He has his off days and sometimes he is really gassy and uncomfortable. I am however past my the deep fog of sadness that I was in that first month. I did have postpartum depression and as a word of caution to any moms out there who have lost a baby- we are at a MUCH greater risk of post-partum depression. I remember taking a questionnaire before I left the hospital to screen if I was at risk for it, and the nurse came somewhat alarmed to tell me I was at a very high risk category. Also our friend Pam who is a doula told me that mothers of twins are at a much greater risk as well.
I was surprised that post partum hit me so hard, specially when I did not experience this depression after Andrew passed away. I was grieving and I of course would cry, but in a different way. I do not wish post partum depression on anyone and encourage to seek help the earlier, the better.
I will try to post updates more often!
